A Lesson on Perspective

The curtain closed on 2008 instantaneously re-opening on 2009. With it my enthusiasm for Journey to the Son was replaced with anxiety. Did I take on too much? Am I prepared for this responsibility? What if I fail?

I suddenly felt alone. This project was so much bigger than me. I wanted to run and hide. But running would mean turning my back on God. Plus, I was past the point-of-no-return; already soliciting story submissions, committing to speaking engagements and having booked the theater.

I cried out to the Lord. "Father God, I think you picked the wrong person for this project. I'm not good enough to run your ministry. I'm not qualified and...there's not enough time. Only nine months!" Doubt took over. I started questioning my purpose and the calling to which I had been so sure was from God. I needed reassurance. I needed to know God was on my side.

In desperation I reverted to the two things I know for certain bring about communion with God. Reading the Bible and prayer.

I sought Him with fervor. I poured out everything in me; my fears, my doubts, my objections to this ministry. I asked Him for guidance, clarity of purpose and direction. I prayed for wisdom, patience, and confidence to go forth as a servant of the Lord. I argued. I pouted. I wept.

Then, when I was empty, and alone in the silence of my home, I heard the Lord chuckle. I smiled abashedly.

"You," He said sternly but I could hear the smile in His voice, "need some perspective."

"Perspective?" I questioned.

"Yes. You are worrying about publishing two books, directing and promoting a show, and some administrative details for Chariot Ministries..."

"All of which need to be done in the next nine months." I interrupted to remind Him.

"Yes, all of which need to be done in the next nine months." He conceded. "Which is why you need perspective. I gestate and bring forth human life in the span of nine months. Compared to Journey to the Son, which do you think is the greater miracle?"

I was grateful for His point, and I understood it well. God took six days to bring forth all of creation. He chooses to take nine months for human gestation. It seems, then, that nine months for a couple of books, a stage production and some administrative tasks is sublimely generous.

I'm back on track thanks to the Lords gentle rebuke. I've vowed to stop wasting time being overwhelmed and concentrate, instead, on following the path the Lord has set before me. It's no coincidence His first project for Chariot Ministries is titled, Journey to the Son. It is a constant reminder that everyday is a Journey to the Son. The first step in my journey for 2009 comes in the form of new perspective.

I've heard your call, Lord. I'm right behind you...

Prayer Requests:

• Please pray for continued encouragement.
• Pray for the women who are considering submitting a story for Journey to the Son: Every Woman. That they will follow the prompting of their heart. That they will realize the power of their testimony to transform and save lives. That they will be bold and vulnerable.
• Pray for me as I continue to work on editing Journey to the Son.
• Pray for Chariot Ministries as we work toward posting a new website and seeking 501c-3 non profit status.

For His Glory,

~Harvest