Throughout this process I considered going back to school. It seemed prudent to have a backup plan. I figured I could finish my degree and then make myself available for teaching. At least then I would have summers off. I hurried to print applications for enrollment and financial aid from the computer. I set aside time to fill out these forms and strived to have them completed for priority consideration. Today was going to be the day I submitted everything. But I couldn’t shake a nagging feeling that overcame me every time I thought about a future with a part-time (or completely void of) Chariot Ministries. Grief and guilt moved me to tears. Was I really willing to turn my back on Chariot Ministries for a predictable routine and regular paychecks?
I decided to pray. I know with a decision this big I should have been turning to constant prayer. But it never occurred to me to pray about ‘if’ I should go to school…until this morning. I said my prayers. I didn’t receive an answer to my concerns, which didn’t surprise me. The Lord likes to work in His time. So, I decided to read my daily chapter from the Bible before continuing on with my day.
Today’s chapter was Mark 4 and begins with the Parable of the Sower. I read the familiar passages chuckling when the disciples asked Jesus to explain the parables. My smile quickly faded when I came to verse 19. I had already underlined this passage during a previous reading. It was as though I had known there would come a time when this particular verse would speak directly to me. Could I be a thorny-ground hearer?
“But the worries of this life, the deceitfulness of wealth and the desires for
other things come in and choke the word, making it unfruitful.”
Chariot Ministries is God’s ministry. Not mine. God has invited me to co-labor with Him via this ministry toward His greater purpose of being glorified. I almost let my desire for other things allow me to turn my back on God’s call. A call, need I remind myself, that I prayed and asked for incessantly.
I’ve decided to walk in faith. I will not submit my application for college. I am trusting in our Lord to pave the way and provide the means. What I will do is be obedient to His call. I will be faithful in prayer. And I will continue to read His word.
“All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting
and training in righteousness.”
~2 Timothy 3:16
Prayer Requests:
- Pray for encouragement.
- Pray that the Lord will continue to lead me to the women he has hand-selected to be a part of the Journey to the Son: Every Woman project.
- Pray for the Lords provision, both for my family and for Chariot Ministires.
- Pay for wisdom while editing the book(s).
- Pray for creative inspiration for the stage production of Every Woman.
Praise Report:
- Praise the Lord for introducing me to Heidi S. this past week. She is a delightful woman who is well connected in the dance community of the Greater Spokane Area as well as many other "useful" connections for Chariot Ministries. A personal praise for her, also, because I know our divine connect was more than work related. I'm very much looking forward to developing our friendship!
- Praise for Donna S. who gave me a C.D. story about a friend of hers who she thinks would make a perfect addition to Journey to the Son: Every Woman. I couldn't agree more!
- Praise for our web designer, Noel, who despite several setbacks has faithfully plugged away at our new website. We should have that posted soon.
- Praise for Jeanette who posted an announcement on the Perspectives e-news letter.
- Praise for the women who have already submitted stories for Journey to the Son: Every Woman. You are greatly appreciated.
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For His Glory,
~Harvest
