When I finished showering I made my way to my favorite chair in the living room. I settled in for my morning ritual of Bible reading and prayer. “Lord, forgive me.” I prayed. “I don’t want you to think I’m trying to be in the show. Quite the contrary,” I had truly come to embrace my role as director. I prayed that the Lord would show me if I was secretly coveting a part in the production.
Several days passed. I continued to pray that the tenth woman would be revealed. One afternoon during prayer time with my husband I said, “Lord, I know you’ve made it clear that I’m not to be in this show but for some reason I keep seeing myself on stage. I don’t understand why I can’t move past this. Please, would you make it clear to me who you want to fill the remaining role?”
My husband understood how much I was struggling and committed to praying with me about the show until the role was cast. Each morning when I had private prayer time with the Lord, I felt he was telling me that I was the final cast member. But my husband didn’t confirm this during our time together. By this time, I really didn’t want to be in the show. I couldn’t imagine something going wrong during a performance and me being stuck backstage unavailable to help.
After two weeks the answer finally came. My husband and I were sitting on the sofa having prayer time. We were coming up on a deadline for our cast photo shoot and the only person who seemed to fit the final role was…me. The burden weighed so heavy upon me that I dared to pray Jesus' prayer from the Garden of Gethsemane, “Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me.” (Luke 22:42) Then I desperately added, "Surely someone else has broken the second commandment!" The Lord immediately responded and I understood for the first time what He had been planning from the beginning. I quickly wrapped up our prayers so I could share with my husband what the Lord had revealed. There wasn't any need. Before I could speak my husband turned to me and said, "You're the tenth woman."
Be sure to come back next week to find out why God saved me for last.
Prayer Requests:
- Pray that the finalizing of the script goes smoothly and that it gets printed on time for our read-through rehearsal.
- Pray that Chris will be granted his vacation request from work so he can be fully present during the performance.
- Pray that business owners will support our ministry and the performing arts by advertising in the playbill.
- Pray the cast stays healthy and committed to this important work and that the production glorifies our Lord Jesus.
In His glorious name,
~Harvest
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ReplyDeleteThanks so much for sharing this Harvest! I can totally relate to your thought process and struggle... I'm glad He chose you to be the tenth woman- that you were willing to give it up... And He blessed you for it. Now go get em'!
ReplyDeleteSarah